You are growing so much. Yes, obviously, you’re gaining weight and lengthening — 16.5 lbs and a tad over 24 inches long — but you’re growing so much in other ways. Your eyes follow movements with more attentiveness. You try to sit up on your own, even though it looks like you’re in an exhausted hunch. It’s cute. You move your legs and arms with more purpose. You like pushing off surfaces with your feet to stand up on your sturdy little legs. You’ve discovered your thumb.
You can also hold your head up for longer periods of time! But you do kind of remind me of Grover from Sesame Street: even though your neck is stronger, there’s still moments where your head looks like it’s going to fall off. I’m sure the wobbliness won’t last much longer, because you have been working hard at it!
You have been going through a biiiiig brain growth spurt and things have been overloading your senses, but we have all made it through those napless mornings and cranky afternoons to the land of smiles and coos and quiet playing. We like it here.
I feel so bad for you when you go through these physical and mental leaps, because there’s not much I can do for you. You have to go through them. You need to go through these hard times because it really is a brighter, clearer world on the other side. And it’s awesome for me and your dad to see your eyes take in things with a new light of understanding.
Gah! We are in love with you, Lou. We got to go away as a family for a 4-day beach weekend to Cha-am, and it was a wonderful time for your quality-time-lovin’ parents. It was just the three of us tucked away in a nice sea view resort in a sleepy town. I’m so glad we went. There were many first-time memories during that weekend, and they are tucked away in my heart. I am hopeful that we will make it a priority to go on family vacations so that we can keep tucking away memories.
I’ve been trying to be more intentional in the time I spend with you during the day. Your dad has been a big influence in that. It took me this long because I’m rather thick-headed and think I can do all the things on my own power. Foolish, I know. And I’m sorry that you’ve had to feel the after effects of such prideful selfishness.
Abba is teaching me, dear child, and I am growing right alongside you these days. I don’t doubt we will be growing and learning together through the years. And you will hear my whispered “I’m so sorry” more than I would like, Louis. But I hope those sorries will be moments you learn and understand the powerful gifts of grace and forgiveness.